Monday, May 6, 2013

My Piece of Paper

May 5, 2013

Every day I wake up with the passion to push myself further. I know that I can be more than I am, that I have more potential, that I can challenge myself more. I don’t discount my accomplishments and the fact that I have reached goals and surpassed my expectations at times, but a life without new goals and new dreams would just be boring.

There are things in my life that I have not accomplished yet (of course). Some things scare the crap out of me and that causes me to drag my feet like I am walking in quicksand. I have a tendency in my life to reach for the stars in all that I do… but occasionally that bit of fear gets the best of me, brings fourth the procrastinator and the self-doubt… the words “what if I don’t succeed” cross over my mind. Totally normal, but I know I have to kick my ass in gear and understand my own words. Failure is part of the process. Believe in yourself and you can do anything. Don’t try, and you will never be what you want to be.

I use to pride myself for having a vision. I had this image in my head of what my life “should” be. The problem is… I have had to learn to let go of that (I am still working on this). More than likely that vision, the perfect piece of paper that my vision is drawn on… is not going to come out the same way in the end. More than likely… if the vision is anywhere near what I expected it to be, it is no longer on that perfect piece of crisp white paper. The paper will be tattered, torn, scuffed up, folded, unfolded, colored on and pretty much look like it was through hell and back.  You know what? That’s ok. The choices I have made, and some I have not, has shaped that piece of paper into what it needed to be.

My life, is continuously unfolding and folding. My life is one day bright and sunny and another dark and grey. Sometimes my life feels like it’s on fire or blowing around in a giant field. I have felt lost. I have felt like a piece of me is missing. I have been found and have been taped and glued back together.  Every day is a new adventure. Every day I work to flatten back out and preserve the image that started on that crisp clean piece of paper. Every day I am more the woman that I want to be. 

I may never be perfect enough for myself... but I will always, always, always be ME.

20 Minutes (open warmup)

TEAM WOD #1: Girls vs Boys
- 200m Run
- 60 Deadlifts (250/165) *while deads are being performed one team member must be in handstand hold
- 200m Run
- 60 KB Swings (2/1.5) *while swings are being performed one team member must be in deadlift hold
- 200m Run
- 60 Toes to Bar *while T2B are being performed one team member must be in squat sit
- 200m Run
- 30 Triple Unders *while TUs are being performed one team member must hold 14lb med ball overhead
- 200m Run
- 60 Wall Balls (20/14) *while wall balls are being performed one team member must suspend KB
( K, JM and Me - 21:45)

TEAM WOD #2: 2012 Regional WOD
- 75 Back Squat (95/135)
- 50 Pullups
- 25 Shoulder to Overhead (95/135)
- 75 Front Squats (65/85)
- 50 Pullups
- 25 Shoulder to Overhead (65/85)
- 75 Overhead Squats (45/65)
- 50 Pullups
- 25 Shoulder to Overhead (45/65)
*Women go first through whole sequence, men can not let the bar touch the ground until last 45lb shoulder to overhead is completed, they will act as a "rack" for the women. When women complete, men start their sequence and women will be the "rack" for the men. 
(ML, W, JM & Me - 25min Time Cap, Men got to second set of pullups, 35 reps)


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