Tuesday, April 30, 2013

Take What You Need

April 30, 2013

I woke up this morning the same as any other morning. Felt like I slept ok… headed to the gym… had a fantastic workout… nothing out of the “norm,” and headed in to work. Things sort of turned to shit from there… No, there was no traffic, I didn’t drop my keys in a puddle, stub my toe, burn myself on my curling iron, receive any bad news or even forget my lunch at home… but for some reason the mood was at a miserable low.

There we have it folks. It can happen to anyone, a bad mood! I feel like there are all of a sudden those moments where you start thinking about things in life and get overwhelmed. I honestly didn’t get to work and start thinking about anything in particular, it just was something in my subconscious that had a sour flavor. When that happens I find myself having negative thoughts… which SUCKS.  Its like a glimpse back in time of my life when I was out of control. When I let one little thing destroy my day. When I wasn’t happy with anything. So when I start to think about things that I have taught myself to deal with in a positive manner, that I think about on a daily basis, I begin to throw a negative spin on it… not to mention the irritation that occurs when someone chews with their mouth open, taps their foot over and over again… or interrupts me when I am talking to someone.

See… even I don’t want to be around me today. Yuck!

I have been working to try to swing myself out of this mood, and slowly things are progressing positively. I think the best thing about being where I am in my life, is that I can identify that this is a problem. That today is just another day, the “problems” I am creating in my mind are not as big as they are and I can get myself turned around if I just stop letting the crappy thoughts sink into my head.

What is the best thing to do? For me, even if I don’t know what it is that’s bothering me I need go out searching for a way to make myself feel better. I have exchanged a few really funny emails with a great friend (who probably doesn’t even know I was in a mood) because I wont let  my mood define me, or god forbid bring someone else crashing down with me. I complimented some friends on FB, because making other people happy really makes me feel great too… and it is ALWAYS a wonderful thing to let people know how great they are. I chatted with someone I work with about plans for an event we are going to for work and I kept my music going and tried to make my day as “normal as possible.” Finally… the bulls eye… I went outside and sat at our picnic table, ate lunch, had some laughs and just tried to let whatever it is go.

I am coming out of this one on the other side. 

I am really proud of myself that I have been able to identify these things within myself and change them. There was a time where I was absolutely miserable day in and day out. I just cant imagine living my life like that anymore. I was unhappy with everything and had control of nothing. Complaining really just made it worse, as it just kept reminding me that I was in a constant state of “yuck.”  I don’t have much to complain about (really), while my life is not perfect, its my life, it is what I make of it.

If I want to be miserable, I am going to be miserable. Sometimes you might not be able to figure out why you are there… but it takes a lot to know what you need to get yourself out of it! Give what you can when others need it and take what they have to offer when you are in need... thats what friends are for! Surround yourself! 

BE POSITIVE... lead a happy life and take control.

2 Rounds
- 20 Double Unders
- 10 Spiderman
- 5 Pullups
- 10 Grasshopper
- 5 Pushups

5 X 1  Clean
1 Clean, 1 Hang Clean, 1 Jerk (155lbs)
60 Second Rest Between Sets

TEAM WOD: Grudge Match
3 Rounds for Time
- 200m Run
- 10 Box Jump Overs (24" Box)
- 15 Thrusters (95lbs)
(10:36 Rx)

4 Minutes 
- Minute 1 ME
- Minutes 2-4, 3 Reps EMOTM


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