Why is it that "we" as women have such a complex about our bodies? Were does it come from and who started it? Thats what I want to know. Why is it that we have this mindset that to be "perfect" you have to look a certain way, have your body shaped a certain way and have a certain hair/eye/skin color? Its extreamly frustrating and honestly it can be pretty annoying.
I have been on both sides of the fence. When I was young I was a bean pole. I always had large legs that I developed early on in dancing. As I developed into a teen and young adult, hips all of a sudden came into play. I was still "thin" but of course started to realize that I wasnt "ideal" I didnt have any boobs, I had a big butt, my thighs rubbed when I walked and my tummy was certainly never flat. Eventually as time went on I started to put on more weight and until rock bottom (March 2011) I really didnt do anything about it. I have always been heavy... but what KILLS me is that the first thing that any person that I would tell how much I weighed was "well, your tall." As if that person is programmed to try to convince me that the reason I am overweight is because I am tall. Why?
Well, that I will never know. I guess we just try to make people feel "better" about themselves when they put themselves down. What I do know is that I was not happy with myself. I looked in the mirror and was a shadow of the woman I wanted to be. I knew she was in there. The woman I was hunting for was not the woman you see in magazines, not the supermodel, not the fitness model, none of those things. The woman I was hunting for was the woman that would make me smile and be proud and comfortable in my own skin when I looked in the mirror and thought about my body. There is nothing in this world that has pressured me to try to reach that goal, it was just a goal that I set for myself. As much as people or even scociety wants to think that I have been out there busting my ass for THEM... they are wrong, this one is for me. I want to feel good about me. I want to work hard for myself... it has nothing to do with looking good for anyone else.
What I have learned is that I have to love myself. I have to love my body and in order to do so I have to love both what I put into my body (food), what I do for my body (crossfit) and with that I can confidently accept a compliment that someone might extend to me. Now, rather than "ehhh no, I still have work to do" when someone says "you look great" I confidently express a "thank you" to them! It feels good to be able to accept something like that.
I know that I have worked hard for my body. I know that I am not perfect, but I dont want to be. I dont need to be. I am not striving to be. All I want is to be happy, confident and comfortable being me and crossfit and paleo are achieve that.
Learn to love your body. Love every piece of it that isnt perfect... love every piece of it that is perfect. Love your hair that drives you nuts, your skin that wont stop breaking out, your toes that seem to be too short and stubby, your ass because its big, your thighs because they are strong and thick, your eyes because they are mysterious... whatever it is. Love it. Than you will work hard to keep it as healthy and alive as long as you can.
- Row 250M
- 10 Abmat Situps
- 5 Pullups
- 10 Air Squats
- 5 Burpees
Couch Stretch 2 Min Each Leg
4 X 20 Double Unders
4 Minute Squat Sit
Lax Shoulder Mobility
Challenge Day 19Breakfast: 1oz Pumpkin Seeds, 2 Egg Muffins, 3 Slices of TGI Paleo Bread, 12 oz Green Tea
Snack 1: 2oz Boars Head Nitrate Free Turkey, 1/2 Avocado, 1 Tomato, 12 oz Green Tea
Lunch: 3 oz Chicken with Cauliflower Rice and 1/3 cup of Coconut Milk
Dinner: 3 oz Flank Steak and Butternut Squash
Post WOD: Shake
Snack 2: 2oz Boars Head All Natural Turkey with 1 tbsp of olive oil mayo and 1/2 an Avocado on Romaine