Thursday, August 23, 2012

Let It Go

August 23, 2012

There was a time in my life that I thought I had everything planned out. I was young, I was in a fantastic relationship and I had only known the "normal" hardships of a teenager. My thoughts were about what I was going to do on Saturday night, what my shifts at work were going to be like next week and if my parents were going to find out that I went into Boston last weekend. Problems were the fact that my friend broke plans with me to hang out with her new boyfriend, I didnt have any money to buy a new top for my date on Friday night and how in the world I was going to get to a 8:00am class that I had no choice to sign up for in college.

In the middle of all that, I had a vision of what I wanted my life to look like. However, I have to say... if you asked me then what I thought my life would be like at 30+ years old and compared than to now... I was pretty far off! I am, by virtue of my bloodline, a planner. I think about the future often. Maybe thats a good thing, maybe thats a bad thing. At that time in my life, I think maybe I just wanted to grow up to fast. I knew what I wanted, who I wanted it with and how I was going to get there. I could see age 25. "That" age 25 and "actual" 25 were quite different. Was I disappointed? No. The path I took to get where I was at 25 and where I am now, though different from what I thought when I pictured my life, was exactly what it was meant to be. I am who I am today because of what I have been through, all the peaks and valleys of my life included.

If I had held on to long to the things that weren't meant to be, I may have missed out and not experienced some of the most important things that have molded me into the person I am now.  Life's experiences change us. They make us stronger, happier, angrier, wiser... they make us, "us." Sometimes those things that have been let go of come back, and sometimes they stay away forever... but they are all a part of the big picture. They are all important in making life what it is.

I guess thinking too much of the future can be a hindrance sometimes... but I do still do it quite often. I think its important to think of where you are going and what you are doing. How your actions today will affect the future "you" and those around you. What you want the future to look like and what changes you can make to allow that to happen. However, the lesson I have learned is that its not set in stone. The path might take a turn where I least expected it. I may have to climb a wall, or jump a hurdle, hell I might end up in a totally different place than I was heading, but the road keeps on going. The days keep on coming and I have to be willing to take what life is dishing out.

I can not be afraid. The future is coming. Sometimes I have to just let go of what I thought and take what is coming my way... who knows, it might be better than I could have ever imagined it to be! I surprise myself every day... I had no idea I would be where I am right now even last year at this time. Keep it coming. I am ready!

3 Rounds
- 20 Walking Lunges
- 15 Abmat Situps
- 10 Pushups
Couch Stretch (2 min each leg)

3 Mile Run
3 Stop Clean
- 5 X 5 15lbs
- 5 X 5 65lbs
Snatch Balance
- 5 X 5 65lbs

Challenge Day 4
Breakfast: 1oz Pumpkin Seeds, 2 Egg Muffins, 1 cup Butternut Squash, 12 oz Green Tea
Snack 1: 2oz Boars Head Nitrate Free Ham, 1/2 Avocado, 1 Tomato, 12 oz Green Tea
Lunch: 3 oz Chicken and Zucchini and Summer Squash and 1/3 cup of Coconut Milk
Break: 12 oz Green Tea
Dinner: 3 oz Flank Steak and Butternut Squash
Post WOD: Shake
Snack 2: 2oz Boars Head All Natural Turkey with 1 tbsp of olive oil mayo and 1/2 an Avocado on Romaine


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