Tuesday, April 24, 2012


April 20, 2012

Open auditions starting today!!

 Seriously, if there is one thing I have learned in my life, being myself and staying true to being the person I want to be is by far the most important lesson I have learned. It didn’t come overnight and I didn’t “learn” it from one particular instance. My parents didn’t “teach” it to me, I didn’t read about it… It is all the moments in my life so far rolled up into one tight package.

As a child I wasn’t “popular” I had a rough go for a lot of years in school with getting made fun of and even having people throw shit at me (kids can be so crule). I spent years in the nurses office trying to get her to call my mom so that I didn’t have to go back to class. Lots and lots of broken thermometers in the nurses office faking a fever… but she was on to me of course. I couldn’t understand (and still don’t) how I, who didn’t do “anything” do anyone could be treated that way just for being me. I tried hard to get involved, tried to get people like me, tried to fit in and that just resulted in people making fun of me more because I was trying to hard. AWESOME.

I almost transferred to a high school out of my home town because of the horrible experiences I had in elementary and middle school. The thought of clearing my name and getting out of there was something I really considered. However, after talking to my parents and deciding that “high school was different” I didn’t make the move. The idea was that if it was “that bad” than we would talk about switching. I had a few friends that I was happy to not leave, those of which I am still good friends with to this day and we all walked into the high school on the first day excited to start this chapter of our lives.

Not much changed for me. Still the kid that got made fun of… still trying to fit in… but as my mom (see mom always knows best) always told me… something inside me started to change. I was coming into my own. I knew the person I wanted to be and I was sticking to my guns. I started to get the “if you don’t like me, that’s ok” attitude and my life started to look up a bit. My first “real” boyfriend had a lot to do with that. He helped me to understand that fitting in wasn’t all that important as long as you were happy and by trying to conform to what people expected me to be was only going make me sell myself short. If I knew where he was today I would thank him for that as I think about it often. By the end of high school I was dating a guy for two years (alum of my high school) that most people in my class wouldn’t even believe would talk to me let alone date me. Stunned the world that he came to both jr and sr proms with me and in fact did actually like me… and he liked me for ME.  I had a few girlfriends that were (and still are) amazing friends and women that I am proud to say are my friends… and I was starting to become “myself.”

College was amazing. Leaving the people who knew me since grade school and before was the perfect change in life for me. No one knew me as the kid who got paper thrown at her, no one knew me as the kid who got made fun of by all the popular girls, or the one who cried in the bathroom. I started to become my own woman, the woman who I wanted to be. It took a lot of ups and downs, a breakup, fights with friends, a tragic loss, new friends, new love, rekindling relationships, being hurt, being rewarded, being a leader, a mentor and someone that people looked up to… there were lots of emotions… but through all of that, staying true to myself, my thoughts, my feelings and knowing that my feelings were ok, correct and exactly what they “should” be and not doubting that… I am ok.

Today I am ok and I know the decisions I make and thoughts and feelings that I have are ok… I would like to sign up for that audition because I know I have the part!!

Jump Rope Circuit 2X
- 10 Singles
- 10 Each Leg
- 10 Side to Side
- 10 Front to Back
- 10 Crossover
- 10 Double Unders
3 Rounds
- 5 Burpees
- 10 Situps
- 10 Back Extensions
Group: Deadlift Instruction

WOD: "Diane"
21-15-9 for Time
- Deadlift (155lbs)
- HSPU (small black bands)

3 X 200m Row


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