Sunday, December 4, 2011

Never say Never

December 2, 2011

When I was 9 I thought I was "never" going get to high school. When I was in 13 and looked up to the girls who got picked for kick line at my dance studio I "never" though I would be lucky enough to be chosen. When I was lonely and getting picked on in high school I "never" thought I would bring one of the most popular boys in school to the prom (twice). When I started college I "never" thought I would be in charge of the largest club on campus. When I went out for my 21 birthday I "never" thought I would meet the man I was to marry. When I started my graduate studies I "never" thought I would ever finish and walk across the stage with my Masters of Architecture. When I was miserable in my job I "never" through I would find a fantastic place to work. Six months ago when I looked in the mirror I "never" thought I would be able to look at myself and think... damn I worked hard for this body.

I can proudly say... all of those things... that I "never" thought would happen.... has happened. Big, small, good, bad... many more than just what I noted above, they have happened. Why?

Its funny how its so easy to look at something, a challenge, a goal, something personal, something simple or something really extreme and say... "I could never do that" or "that will never happen." Why is it that we always assume, even before trying that we are going to fail. Why is it that we think we will never be able to get through something that more often than not we have never even tried before. Its so hard to face failure right in the face... but as my mom and dad always taught me... and what helped me to get through all of those above listed things... "you can not fail unless you try... but you also cant succeed unless you try."

With every one of those accompaniments I have become a stronger person. With every failed attempt I have become a stronger person. The year I was old enough to get picked for kickline and all the girls I had been dancing with for 15 year got picked, and I didnt... I was devastated. What did I do wrong, why was I not good enough? I did not quit, I did not walk away, I was persistent, I tried twice as hard the next year and the day I was picked for kickline I knew that my hard work had paid off. I appreciated the success even more that I would have the first year I pushed harder and got better.

So, why do I bring this up? Well along with the "challenge" of crossfit, on a daily basis you are constantly faced with failure, can you make it, can you lift it... how hard can you push? What I take with me every day is that old saying my parents instilled in my head. You will NEVER know unless you try. There have been attempts made at the gym where failure has followed, but its only temporary, as the next time... who knows, I might get it. Dropping a weight isnt going to hurt anything... not trying... well all that will lead to is contentment.

When I looked at the WOD I was scared. How the heck am I am going to do 5 rounds of 30 KB swings with 1.5 pood kettle bell (thats 54lbs)? But I didnt say "I could never do that." Instead I faced it... and instead of using the "never" in a negative way I said  I will "never" give up. I will not lie, it was hard and it was painful, but you know what? I did it. I finished and I felt horribly awesome when I was laying on the floor 47 minutes after I started the WOD.

Never say never...

20 Walking Lunges
3 Rounds
- 5 Pullups
- 10 Pushups
- 10 Shoulder Dislocates
- 5 Slow Leg Lifts
20 Walking Lunges
2 X Burgerner

WOD: "Hansen"
5 Rounds for Time
- 30 KB Swings (1.5 pood)
- 30 Burpees
- 30 GHD Situps
(My time 47:38)


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